Sunday, June 27
2:32:00 PM
On the road again. Sending this from my iPhone, sitting in a park in beautiful flagstaff, Arizona! It is truly gorgeous here and wouldn't be a bad place to settle down in. I don't know why I've been thinking about that kind of stuff a lot lately. I'm only 17 and want to put off marrying as long as possible ( I have commitment issues) yet I still find myself constantly saying ohh this is the type of neighborhood I'd raise my kids in, or this is the kind of house I want! This just recently started and it's kind of fun, like planning my future, though I know I'll probably end up in some trashy neighborhood, with some trashy boyfriend who abuses me, and a trashy life because that's just the kind of person I'm destined to be. I'm doing all i can to avoid this inevitable future. I study really hard in school, I already have the college I want picked out and I want to major in graphic design, hopefully for a big-time magazine, but I'd be okay with advertising Design as well. I've also promised myself not to settle. I have really low self esteem obviously and it takes some major motivation to keep telling myself I deserve someone nice and hopefully successful. That's extremely hard during my down periods though. Anyways back to the subject of my trip- we leave tomorrow morning bright and early to tackle the eight hour drive that will lead me home to sunny sd! I used to get this overwhelming feeling everytime I stepped off the plane when I would visit, sort of like I was exactly where I belonged and I had been out of place for the past 9 years. I can imagine the feeling I'm going to get once it hits me that I'm going to be permanently living in my beautiful home again. Hopefully it can renew my "happy high" and keep it going for atleast another week or two. This good period is one of the longest i've felt in about a year. I described it on my depressiontribe.com account as "when I am in these wonderful good periods I feel like I'm flying and my depression is gone forever, like ie somehow magically overcame it... Until i come crashing down. Then it hits me all over again that this disease is here to stay. Luckily I haven't experienced that yet this time- but I'm sure you'll hear about it when it does happen. In the meantime be who you are, not someone else, and live happy. Peace.
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Age: 17
Location:So Cal
Sex: F
Likes:Running, Drawing, Painting, Writing, Arizona Tea
Dislikes:Close-mindedness, Arrogance, Movies with talking animals

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Hello my name is Dakota Ramn. I like pineapples, fantasies and being rebellious.

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