2.5 weeks. 2.5 weeks that I have felt genuinely happy. And in said 2 and a half weeks I have only had a total of 24 bad hours. This is pretty much a record for the past 2 years. And I am loving it so much. I mean, it's not like magnificent things have been happening, and it's not like something profound has changed my mind like an epiphany or something. I am just so happy to be happy. Gah, I almost forgot what it feels like to be like this. Our house is definitely over 75% empty and I have taken at least a million trips to the dumpster in the past two weeks. I had to get rid of a lot of little nick nack things that had some sentimental value, but I think I'm okay with it because I am starting a new chapter in my life after all. I always said before that things could only get better from the low point I was at, and what do you know I was right. I sort of figured that the universe would once again find a way of proving me wrong and acting just to piss me off, but no, this time, nature is on my side. And it feels nice knowing someone is on your side. I haven't even had to visit the depression pages I'm apart of recently. And really something super shitty happened to me yesterday, something that normally would have put me in a bad state, but no there were so many good things in my brain that I don't think I even thought about it once. This is such a new journey to me, and I'm excited to explore this uncharted territory. Usually after such a good spell I would get so low that I would fantasize about leaping from buildings just like the bad thoughts leap from synapse to synapse in my messed up brain.

Things are starting to hit me that I will have to leave behind all my childhood friends, all my current friends, all my memories and sentiments. All feelings of nostalgia will be gone. Obviously it hasn't exactly sunk into my brain yet because I'm not sad over it, but I am starting to understand more what this will mean for me in the future. I am so beyond ready to start this new chapter in my life. And with my new found attitude, the Universe can bring on this bullshit life, I'ma fuckkk itt upppppp. :)